I haven’t blogged in a few days, it’s been a whirlwind around here. I wanted to blog about something that I’m in the process of learning, that has really hit home for me during my maternity leave especially:
Being happy in ANY and EVERY situation.
When I found out we were pregnant with twins, I went into a bit of a panic mode when I looked at my surroundings. A small, three bedroom, one bathroom, Cape Cod home. No dining room (a combined dining/living room area) and a galley kitchen. If you don’t know what a galley kitchen is, think about an apartment style kitchen. It’s narrow and about two people can fit into it max. A house that could easily fit into the homes all my friends had. A fixer upper that would need to be fixed up “immediately!” On top of that, a very crappy truck that seems like there was something wrong with it at every turn. (Funny side note – when I looked at carcomplaints.com our truck was ranked # 1 worst vehicle out there, isn’t that just wonderful?! So glad we were able to purchase a newer vehicle recently!!) I started to compare myself to everyone around me.
- “Well ___________ has a four bedroom, two bathroom, two car garage with a swimming pool!!”
- “Geeze, _________ just bought a brand new car!! We need to get in the game…”
- Man, it seems like ____________ has so much more saved up than we do…how are we going to be ready for twins?!”
In other words, I would feel a little bit envious/jealous of what others had and started to put pressure on myself and my husband. I also started to feel anxious. “HOW ARE WE GOING TO FIT TWINS IN THIS HOUSE?!” I would ask my husband daily. We need to…and I would start listing everything we needed to do. Buy a new house, buy a new car, remodel this, remodel that, get a new dining set..and basically I started to just go a little bit crazy. My poor husband!! I would make myself unhappy because I wanted to keep up with Joneses (or in this era – the Kardashians!)…
But guess what? We didn’t buy a new house, we didn’t buy a new car in that moment…we did what we could and we simply made it work. Then, the boys were born. And life went on. All of the things that I saw as negative, I started to see in a positive light. I will give you an example of how my mindset started to change with my house:
- The house is too small.
- Wow, with twins, I’m REALLY happy with our house size!! Less to clean up!
- I’m grateful for this reasonable mortgage! It’s less than what we paid in rent at our apartment! We can survive this maternity leave BECAUSE we didn’t get in over our heads!
- Because we have a reasonable mortgage, my hubby has the option of staying home with the boys full time in September!
- Someone out there is happy with LESS than what I have. I OWN my own home. There are so many people living in horrid, poverty, and yet I complain because my home isn’t “big enough?” Have you seen third world countries? Have you taken a glimpse at the staggering homelessness in our own country? Get it together lady!
And I read this awesome verse in Philippians: “I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
It has been my anthem during these months. I can do ALL THINGS through Him who gives me strength. I feel so much peace in my life right now. Even with everything with my husband’s job! Remember how I was freaking out my last post? He went to the new store and his new manager is SO happy that he’s there. She has no issues about the days he needs off and has been pretty good so far. In fact, she has two daughters so she gave us a gate set and is giving us a swing-set for the backyard that she can no longer use. He still plans on leaving, but at least it gives us time to get some things in order for September. However, we both agreed that if for some reason things get crazy we will have to jump ship a bit early and just make it work. Thank you for those who prayed for us and offered wise words!
In the end, I think I have learned to truly appreciate what I have and to count every blessing. To complain LESS, and show more GRATITUDE. Because in the end, I feel like a blessed lady. 🙂