Beta # 1…feeling hope again!

Beta number one was 126 and my progesterone was over 50 which they said was a good thing! I wish I could say I felt out of the water but the truth is that because I experienced a c/p the first time around, I really want to see beta # 2 and beta # 3 as well so that I can make sure that these numbers are doubling! Some good signs this time around:┬áno spotting. Though spotting is completely normal, I did spot during my first IVF and it ended up being a chemical pregnancy and it made me freak out the whole time because I kept feeling like I was getting my period!! This time around, I have not spotted even once. I KNOW spotting is normal, but I would prefer not to spot and I’m happy that his time around that I am not. My cramps have also subdued as well. Now I just feel a lot of exhaustion and tiredness. I really need to work on staying more hydrated as well.
We really don’t want to tell anyone until we are done with the first trimester. That sounds like a long time but after the first trimester the risk of miscarriage drops to like 1% from what I heard. I’m nervous about other aspects of all this as well, especially telling people. Not everyone will understand why we did it or the timing of why we did it…but there is a reason. In the middle of this entire process, my husband and I wanted to completely quit. It was tiring, exhausting emotionally and physically. There’s truly nothing “fun” or exciting about this process in my opinion. So we actually scheduled an appointment with our RE to tell him just that – pull the plug, this whole thing sucks, we want out. And when we got to the appointment, that’s exactly what we told him. He basically told us the timing was NOW. We had to go for it in this moment because of factors including my health, my eventual surgeries, and because our insurance was still covering it, etc. He went on and on and on. By the end of it, we agreed to continue. This is not Natalie and Jose timing. We really believe this is God’s timing. We don’t understand why now in this specific moment, but we are going for it. It’s not going to be easy.



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