How to Trust God When It’s Hard

Have you ever been in a season of your life where your future seems so uncertain? You are trying to look a few steps ahead but can’t even see what’s in front of you? You feel anxiety creeping in, doubt screaming in your face, and fear threatening to consume you? Maybe you find yourself in a situation you simply don’t understand? How do we trust God when it seems hard?

I’ve been there! I’ve said the words, “God – I want to trust You. But it’s hard.” Yet, I recognize that true peace and freedom is ONLY found in complete and total surrender and trust to God. And it’s not hard.

The question is – how do we do it? Here are a few suggestions:

  1. Commit to prayer.

Coming to a place of trusting in God starts with talking to God. Make this a part of your every day life by inviting God into every aspect of Your life. I used to run to my comfort zones when I was stressed out about things and made turning to God secondary, or sometimes the last resort. It was “easier” to distract myself with other things – mindless entertainment, hanging out with friends, shopping, etc. Yet, the end result of that was pain for me because it always left me desensitized and apathetic.

Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always. – 1 Chronicles 16:11

Commit to prayer when you feel like running or turning the television on. Have an honest and open conversation with God – He hears you, He cares.

2. Commit to His word.

Commit to reading the Bible every day. Replace checking your Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and all of the like with opening the YouVersion Bible App. The more you do it, the more habitual it will become. Seek HIS truth. If you are in a place where you need answers or guidance, there is no more solid place than the Word of God to start with.

Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. – Psalm 119:105

God’s word will give You clear direction and guidance.

3. Commit to spending time with people who will build your faith.

I learned this the hard way. The worst thing you can do when you are struggling with trusting God is to surround yourself with people who are in a similar boat. NO.

Don’t fool yourselves. Bad friends will destroy you. – 1 Corinthians 14:33

Surround yourself with people who will speak life, encouragement, and faith over you. Spend time with people who will remind you of all that God has done in Your life. Go out for coffee for a friend who will pray WITH you and remind you of God’s wisdom and promises.

4. Commit to remembering what God’s done in Your life.

I recently heard in a message, “Sometimes you need to recount the victories.” It resonated in my heart because it’s something that God reminded me I need to do! Take a minute to remember all of the amazing things God has done in your life. You’re still breathing aren’t you? There are times where we look back and can so clearly see God’s hand of protection over us, perhaps we remember His clear guidance or direction on a topic. REMEMBER these things. The same God that’s taken care of you then, is the same God watching over you now.

Our Lord, I will remember the things you have done, your miracles of long ago. – Psalm 77:11

Sometimes I read through my prayer journal and am amazed at how many prayer’s God has answered. It’s encouraging!

5. Commit to worship.

I was listening to a worship song and the singer said, “Don’t let fear steal your song.” Those words landed on my heart with a thud. I was so worried and letting anxiety consume me, that I didi just that. I stopped worshipping God and started focusing on my problems. When we worship God, we take the focus off of ourselves and onto HIM. We take the focus off of our problems and worries and onto HIM. I don’t know what worship looks like to you, but to me it’s putting on some worship songs and sitting on the floor, listening, praying, singing…walking around. I look at these songs as more than just a song – declarations they are. Of my total trust in Him.

6. Commit to surrender.

This means that we let go our fears and worries and we literally give them over to God completely. We recognize that we have no control and God has all of the control. We recognize that at the end of it all, God opens the right doors and closes the wrong ones.

Surrender to God All-Powerful! You will find peace and prosperity. – Job 22:21

A surrendered life is a peaceful life.

7. Commit to trusting Him.

Wait, is this a trick  Nope. It’s not. How do we trust God when it’s hard? We trust Him. Even when it’s hard. We just DO. We know He holds our time in His hands, our life in His hands. We know that if he cares about the birds, how much more does He care about us? We know we can trust Him. So trust Him.

Thanks for stopping by and reading a topic that’s been so close to my heart lately because God has been working with ME in this area. Until next time!

 

 

 

Why Giving is SO Important

livinggenerouslygraphicLately, God has been teaching me about giving. Through different people, through His word, through different sermons, through hard life lessons.

The conclusion that I’ve come to is – GIVING IS ALWAYS GOOD. GIVING IS RIGHT. BE GENEROUS.

We reap what we sow. It’s a biblical principle. Check it out:

Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. Each of you should give what you have decided in your heart to give, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver. And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. – 2 Corinthians 9:6-8

Why should we give? Why should we live lives of generosity?

  1. The bible tells us to.
  2. It’s more blessed to give than to receive.
  3. God is able to bless us and make sure we have all we need. *Note that needs and wants are different!*

We DO NOT give because…

  1. We want something in return.
  2. We feel forced and want to check it off the list.
  3. We want the pride, affirmation, accolades that come with giving.

We don’t give with an attitude either. “Okay, God. I’ve given so this is what I want…” God is not a genie. If you want a genie, check out Aladdin. We give to others because God has given to us so freely. First, we have salvation and it’s something completely FREE. God loves us and we don’t have to earn His love. We can’t buy our way into heaven or into His promises. But when we give, we are so richly blessed.

We should give AT ALL TIMES, even when it’s really hard!

But my spouse lost his job. We are really tight right now.

GIVE.

But I am single parent struggling to make ends meet.

GIVE.

But I’m going through a really hard time in life right now.

GIVE.

I’m speaking to this because I have been there. We have been in situations where we have been on one income. We have been in situations where we have watched the lives of our children flash before our eyes. We have been in situations where people have hurt us. Nonetheless, I have experienced the overflow of God’s blessings every single time without fail when we have been consistent in giving. We have always experienced his provision. We have never been without what we have needed.

Giving should flow from a heart that is willing and pure. If you are ever in a place or even a church where people are guilting/coercing/begging you into giving, RUN! It needs to come from a heart that wants to be generous because in the end, YOUR HEART IS WHAT MATTERS THE MOST. If you give with a crappy attitude, you might as well not give. I think motive matters greatly.

Can I give you examples of how God has provided for us through challenging times?

  1. When the boys were sick as preemies and I had to take a longer maternity leave without any disability, God used a blogger friend to supply a case of expensive formula Micah needed just when we ran out. Formula landed on my doorstep from TEXAS. During that time we also received random checks in the mail, hand me downs from others, even a check from the mortgage company. God took care of us.
  2. At the end of my school year, after my long maternity leave, I had a crazy check come in (by the thousands) that was completely unexpected to the point where I e-mailed my HR director asking her about it. She explained how it was rightfully mine, even though I couldn’t believe it! I don’t even remember her explanation, all I remember is being so grateful.
  3. When my husband left the only job he ever had for over ten years, God opened up a door for him with a job where he eventually became a real estate agent, which has been a huge blessing for our family.
  4. When my husband was in a sudden transition between brokerages, God used someone anonymous to supply us with a $500 grocery gift card and $250. This is all without us asking or even announcing it (our Pastor mentioned it at the end of a Sunday service, our church responded by being generous…anonymously! We are grateful to be part of this kind of church.)

HE HAS ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF US WITHOUT FAIL. Everything I have I owe to Him. Therefore, I can give to others and live generously!

The Bible tells us this story of Jesus sitting down in the temple watching everyone give. All these rich people are throwing in tons of money. Then, all of a sudden, this widow comes up and she drops in two coins only worth a few cents. Jesus points her out and says, Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others.They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on.”

This tells us Jesus isn’t impressed by a monetary amount. You can’t buy your way in. This woman gave from the depths of her heart because she literally gave all that she had. Jesus essentially says, “Hey guys! This widow here? She nailed it. She gets what it means to give.”

I want to be like her. I haven’t always lived generously, but I have come a long way and want to continue to grow in this.

Look out for part 2 – What Giving Looks Like, where you’ll find practical applications and ideas/thoughts on how to give. 

 

 

National Infertility Awareness Week!

Start ASking

Hi beautiful people! I have decided to share my blog with my friends, family, and people I know. For years I have blogged without sharing it with too many people that I knew in real life. This blog started in 2012 as a place I could write about my thoughts and share things I was scared to really say out loud when it came to our struggles with infertility. When I found out we had fertility issues, I didn’t feel like I could talk to a lot of people about it for different reasons. Plus, it’s not exactly easy dinner conversation: “Pass me the bread, oh yeah I’m having trouble having a baby…” What I DID feel like I could do was write about it. So that’s what I did. In blogging I found a really amazing community of people who were in the same shoes. A great deal who had made it to the other side and had given me hope. Some, who to this day, are still struggling to conceive. Ultimately, it ended up being an amazing outlet to share and to listen.

I want to share my blog because when I look back at where we were in 2012 and what we went through to have a family, all I can do is be filled with gratitude and awe at where we are today. And guess what? I take literally ZERO credit for it. It’s all God. Without Him, we wouldn’t be where we are today. Yes, we didn’t go through the typical process people go through to have a baby. I’m thankful for how far we have come in the medical world and through science. I’m grateful that God uses doctors, nurses, scientists, and all kinds of awesome people to make things happen. That’s just how good He is. So today what I want to offer others is this:

HOPE.

I share my blog because I believe there is hope for anyone who is dealing with infertility. Anyone who is walking this journey. It can be lonely, murky, unfamiliar, and altogether terrifying. I can tell you this – everything we went through shaped us and molded us in such a unique way. I learned to face fear head on. I learned not to be consumed with anxiety and worry. I learned that I had a choice, I could choose sorrow and depression OR I could choose hope and joy, even when it was seemingly impossible to do so. I thought it would be really cool to share my blog during National Infertility Awareness week.

This week is National Infertility Awareness week.

The definition of infertility is:

 …the inability to conceive after one year of unprotected intercourse (six months if the woman is over age 35) or the inability to carry a pregnancy to live birth. 

1 in 8 couples struggles with infertility. There is an excellent chance that someone around you is struggling with it or knows someone who is. It’s much more common than people realize.

The theme for National Infertility Awareness Week is #StartAsking. The foundation wants people to #StartAsking:

  • Employers for insurance coverage.
  • Your lawmakers and legislators to support issues important to the infertility community.
  • Friends and family to support you.
  • The media to cover infertility and the real challenges we all face.
  • Those who have resolved their infertility to stay involved.
  • OB/GYN or healthcare provider to talk about YOUR reproductive health.
  • For affordable care for treatment of a disease (all taken directly from resolve.org – edited).

I am going to encourage you to #StartPraying in addition to asking. Pray for your friends and family members who are walking through this. Encourage them. Let them know you are there for them. Pray for the wisdom to be there for them in a way that is helpful, encouraging, and uplifting.

And most importantly, hold on to hope.

 

Faith – Remaining Unshakable.

Unshakable

Lately God has been pressing the same message into my heart.

Be unshakable.

and…

Be immovable.

and…

STAND FIRM.

Though the cares of this world come to destroy us and to rob us our joy and faith, Jesus tells us to be unshakable in Him. It’s inevitable that trials will come our way. It’s a guarantee that at some point in our life, we’re going to face problems. Bad things WILL happen. Jesus himself guaranteed it when he said,

“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” – John 16:13

But here’s the thing. As followers of Jesus, we are ALWAYS on the winning side. We always win! That’s the thing in living a life of complete freedom, free of fear, free of anxiety, free of doubt, free of stress. We win. We have a hope. We have a promise of a life with Jesus FOREVER. Does it get any better than that? That’s enough to fill me with peace. That’s enough to kick fear right in the face. That’s enough to silence any doubts and starve any anxious thoughts that try to make a home in my mind. The Bible spells it out for me quite clearly,

“For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God.” – Colossians 3:3

When I decided to live for Jesus, I died to this life in the sense that the things of this world didn’t have a hold on me anymore. My real life is found hidden in Jesus.

“But the Lord is my fortress;my God is the mighty rock where I hide.” – Psalm 94:22

When our lives are hidden in Jesus, we find peace. We find shelter in His promises. We find a place of complete safety. This doesn’t mean that we hide from the world and bury our heads in the sand when awful things come our way. No, this means that we are NOT MOVED when these things happen because we are found in Jesus! Our life is hidden in Him and therefore, nothing that happens on this earth can shake us. We are founded on the Rock of our salvation. When you build something that’s on a rock, it has a strong foundation. It can’t be moved around when storms hit it. It’s consistent, steady, and will remain even after the storm has passed.

Jesus asks us to live a life that is solidly anchored on the rock so we are unshakeable, steadfast, and firm. We refuse to be moved because we know who we stand on.

How can you live this out in a practical way? Here are a few ideas:

  • Memorize key scriptures that will help you remain steadfast.
    • Bury yourself in the word. Maybe it’s a particular chapter that sticks out to you. Maybe it’s a certain verse. Read it to yourself again and again. Write it down in your prayer journal. Ask God to bring it to remembrance when you go through trials. Pray God’s word. Which brings me to the next point…
  • Pray God’s word.
    • When the trial comes, and it inevitable will, pray the promises of God over your life. The Bible says, “It is the same with my word.I send it out, and it always produces fruit.It will accomplish all I want it to,and it will prosper everywhere I send it.” – Isaiah 55:11.
    • When Jesus was tempted by the devil in the desert, He withstood by declaring the word of the Lord.
  • Don’t react the way you might want to. Refuse to.
    • The flesh part of us wants to react in a very, well, fleshly way. It’s our natural inclination as a human to panic, freak out, and think of the worst things! Trust me, this is coming from a professional freak-er out-er (God is continuing to work with me in this area, thank the Lord!), but we need to react in a way that honors God.
  • Remember that as believers, WE ALWAYS WIN.
    • The Bible reminds us that “… our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all… – 2 Corinthians 4:17
    • What we go through on this earth is temporary, fleeting, momentary. The pain doesn’t last forever. That’s a promise. What we go through on this earth is nothing compared to the eternal life we have in Jesus. Simply incomparable!

I write this to encourage others and for myself! Who doesn’t walk through trials? The question is – how will you handle it? Will you be someone who is moved by every wind that blows your way? Or will you be rooted and firm in Jesus? I choose Jesus.

What 28 taught me. Hello 29.

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Yesterday I officially turned 29. One step closer to 30. Most women dread getting older, but I don’t have a fear of that. I do like to take time and reflect on what I learned over the past year though. What did 28 teach me?

1. To have  a voice. 

As I get older, I find that I’m much more confident in speaking up and voicing how I feel, even if it’s uncomfortable for others. Being a mom, teacher, wife, and leader in my church have all played a part in developing my voice.

2. To unplug and plug into what really matters.

For me this was literal. I think I saw how attached I was to my electronics and how I was missing out on actually being present.

3. Serving others makes me happy and fulfilled.

I found that I enjoy serving, hosting, and giving even when I feel like I don’t have much to offer. I think I have learned to serve with my heart and to serve without wanting or expecting anything in return.

4. The world doesn’t revolve around me.

Humility is a lesson I’ve continued to be taught. I think it’s because it’s not something I’ve quite mastered yet. It’s humbling to recognize that there are things so much bigger than ourselves. It puts things into perspective.

5. Making assumptions will make you look like a fool. Especially because my assumptions are typically wrong.

When I make assumptions about people or situations, I’m almost always proven wrong. Its better to deal with reality than assumptions.

6. I am an awesome mom.

I am proud of the mother I’ve become. I know that I love my boys well and my parental instincts have never failed me so far.

7. My possessions don’t define me.

I’ve come to a point where I’ve realized that stuff is just, well…stuff. I’m more than the car I drive, the clothes I wear, and the latest toys my kids have or don’t have. The end.

8. How to learn to love my small home and see it as a blessing and not a curse.

I think it’s easy to compare with what others have and allow yourself to feel jealous or resentful about it. I have a small home that I use to bemoan. “One day when we get a bigger house…” but I’ve learned to enjoy the here and now and look at the fact that I am a homeowner. I have a mortgage that is cheaper than any rent I’ve ever paid. I have a house where people feel at home in and welcomed in. That’s winning in my book.

9. Not to cave in on something I strongly believe in, no matter how much opposition I face.

I think this year I’ve been in positions that have at times, backed me up against the wall. The easiest thing would have been to cave in because fighting for my convictions was the hard thing to do. But I did it and am proud of that. It’s made me stronger.

10. Dreaming is everything.

I’ve been pushed to dream bigger than I have ever dreamed before. I have been challenged to place no limits or restrictions on the dreams of my heart. By who? God. Myself. My husband. It is everything.

When I look back at 28, I am not filled with regret. I’m filled with contentment. Goodbye 28, hello 29.

The Importance of Retreating

The Importance

This weekend I had the wonderful opportunity and privilege to attend a retreat with my church. We arranged in advance for my mom to request some time off from work so she could watch the boys for us. The retreat was from Friday afternoon to Sunday afternoon. We left Saturday at 3 pm and arrived home on Sunday at 3 pm. We traveled a few hours away to a mountainous area and had truly such an amazing time! I feel like we encountered God in a powerful way, experienced a time of rest, and were refreshed.

It was so nice being away from our normal responsibilities, from the tots, and from everything that demands our everyday attention. I missed the boys like CRAZY, but I firmly believe that happy parents equals healthy parents. This was such an essential time for us. It’s for this very reason that I believe it’s so important to take the time once in awhile to RETREAT. This can mean actually going away on a formal retreat or it can mean taking time to retreat from all of the demands and be still. Here are some reasons I think it’s essential:

  1. You need rest.

Jesus himself said,

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” -‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11:28-30‬ ‭NLT‬‬

I don’t know about you, but there are so many times where I am going and going. Sometimes I am going on empty! If I’m not rested, spiritually, physically, and emotionally than I have absolutely NOTHING to offer other people. If my life is to serve others, I need to do it at my best. So do it. Don’t be afraid to rest. Don’t be afraid to make the time to rest. Carve it into your busy life. It’s essential. If you can actually go away, I highly recommend it. If it means planning for a sitter months in advance, working something out with your job, I can promise you taking a few days to go on a retreat is well worth it. It’s worth the sacrifice of time.

2. It’s important to be still in a world that encourages constant motion and busyness.

Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.” -‭‭Psalms‬ ‭46:10‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Be still in the presence of the LORD, and wait patiently for him to act…” -‭‭Psalms‬ ‭37:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Contrary to what the world screams in our faces, God whispers to us “Be still.” I take that as figurative AND literal. As in literally, BE STILL. It’s like if God is saying, “Would you just stop for a second? Could you stop for a moment and acknowledge who I am? Can you be still in my presence?”

This is God we are talking about. The answer is, or should be, yes. Stillness may cost us something. It might cost us our favorite television shows, our outings with our girlfriends, our “me” time. But we have everything to gain from stillness. Everything.

3. You will feel refreshed and encouraged.

One of the things I gained most from our retreat was feeling refreshed. Coming back from it, I felt like I could take on the world. After all, I had spent the weekend immersed in powerful teachings, worship, and His word without distractions.

I was encouraged by my leaders in so many ways. I was able to share some of my dreams that I hope to accomplish this year and what encouraged me the most was how much they believed in me. My Pastor’s wife especially. After I spoke with her, I felt like I could pretty much take over the world! I normally don’t have the opportunity to talk as much with the people at my church because I’m always rushing out on Sundays for the boys naps. I had such a great time.

Overall, if you think you can find a way to make it happen, I encourage you to find a way to go on a retreat! This can be a church retreat or simply a retreat where you have time alone with yourself or your spouse. Time to think, time to meditate, time alone. Time.

 

 

 

It’s time to dream again.

I’m dreaming again.

For me, God has really pounded this into my soul lately.

I think for a long time I stopped dreaming. I don’t know why. I stopped setting goals for myself and stopped dreaming about the things I wanted to accomplish in life. It’s no one else’s fault at all but my own. Somewhere along the way, I just stopped. To be honest, I think I just got caught up and distracted by fillers. And by fillers I mean, distracted with things that didn’t really matter. STUFF. Things.

And I feel like God is stirring up something in my soul: DREAM.

There is so much that I want to accomplish and I feel like I’m being compelled to set up specific long term and short term goals for myself (which will come at a later post!) but most importantly, I don’t think I’ve ever felt more inspired or more encouraged to dream bold, outlandish, seemingly impossible, wild things.

Do you remember how it was when you were a kid? When people asked you the infamous, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” And with confidence you said things like, “Astronaut!” Or “Princess!” Or “Doctor!” Or whatever it was you wanted to be. You said it with every bit of conviction a child could have, knowing without a shadow of a doubt that you would be what you said you would be?

It’s like God is knocking at my heart and gently reminding me of all of the dreams I once had…and it’s amazing! There are no excuses that can stand in my way. I see a road of endless possibilities. For the next few days, I’ll be setting some specific long term and short term goals that will help me refocus and push me in the direction of accomplish these dreams.

I will be blogging soon about the process of setting up short term and long term goals and what that looks like. Just so this post doesn’t seem super ambiguous, I’ll share some of the dreams I’ve had at one point but put on the back burner. I’m reviving them…

  • Writing more.
  • Working with women – discipleship.
  • Mentoring young women.

And there’s about a billion more things. I’m going to be goal setting and diving my goals into specific types of goals (financial, spiritual, travel, personal, etc) and I plan on sharing what my process looks like. I’ll also be embarking on a cool journey in February too which I can’t wait to share about.

Needless to say, in 2016…I DREAM.

Going back to the RE.

There’s a lot that’s been happening on my end over here. Lately I’ve been experiencing a lot of pain in my abdomen, on my sides, and in my lower stomach area. It’s been increasing, comes and goes, but has been noticeably present lately. Since I have severe endometriosis, I am assuming that is what the flare up is. I’m not going to lie though, I AM concerned. I went to my regular doctor and since my doctor is out of the country, I spoke with the nurse practitioner. Her response was – “I think it may be acid reflux.”

Um…WHAT? I’ve never had reflux in my life except for when I was pregnant, towards the end of my pregnancy. Otherwise, I have never experienced it. I know that’s not what it is. It’s all over my middle area and my symptoms don’t go with acid reflux. So I called my gyno to schedule an appointment with her but don’t get to see them until next the end of the month. I felt like no one has been taking me seriously at all – no one. I went to the next step, my RE.

After all, he was the one who discovered how severe my endometriosis was during the laproscopy. I need someone to hear me and to help me. My RE has never failed me in that department (and neither has God!) and so I want to talk to him and see what he thinks. I am leaning towards having a hysterectomy. My RE told me that after I had the boys I would need corrective surgery at some point. I think the point is here. Before I even begin to think to deeply about that though, I want to talk to my RE and find out what his thoughts are. My blood work showed that there was some blood in the urine (TMI, I know) and the nurse wants me to retake it, which I will be doing ASAP this week. I don’t want to jump to conclusions and make a big decision if it’s something like kidney stones. BUT….

All of this has led my husband and I to many discussions about what our next step is going to look like. He would rather have a healthy wife who is free of pain than more kids, in his words. My heart feels content and happy at this point. I’m just wondering if I will end up changing my mind. Will I feel regret in several years when the boys have grown? This isn’t a decision that I can undo. Yet, I’m so tired and weary of dealing with this endometriosis that I’m leaning heavily towards make that decision. This doesn’t mean we have to be “done” (even though we absolutely feel done at this moment in time)…but it would mean that I can’t have any more babies in my belly. Am I ready to decide that at 28 years old?

My heart ultimately feels peace. I know that no matter what happens, no matter what we decide, God is with us in this whole process. I can absolutely feel Him. But will you guys keep me in your thoughts and prayers? I go to see him this Tuesday morning. Since my husband works and my mom works, I will be going alone about an hour away. I really wanted to have my mom or husband with me as we discuss what’s going on with me, but I’ll be solo. I just want this all to be resolved. Let’s see what the RE says.

Christmas with toddlers. Oh boy!

Let me start off this post with a very telling picture:

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This happened a few days ago. Early Christmas gift from the MIL. First off, let me say that my boys now relax on recliners nicer than that of their parents…but wait, their parents don’t even HAVE recliners. So yep, my boys are already making a better life for themselves than their parents. Haha. The recliners are only a “part” of their Christmas gift from one of their grandmothers (mother-in-law).I can tell it’s going to be quite a Christmas already. My mother-in-law posted a picture of her tree with about 3829 gifts underneath of it, presumably 90% of those gifts for my boys. How sweet right?! YES….but my house is TINY. By tiny, I mean…TINY. You can stand in my living room and get a view of the entire house. I have no dining room and I have a galley kitchen .It’s an itty bitty house. Last Christmas my boys were given loads and loads of gifts. Gifts that take up a good portion of our living room. For their birthday they were given one of those little basketball hoops. It is still sitting upstairs. There’s no room for all of it. Now we have come to Christmas time. I’m filled with excitement and also a slight dread. What massive, immovable, unfoldable items will they receive? A mini-house to play in? A kitchen larger than my own? Two cars to ride around with?! Oh-my-lanta. I will keep you posted! I’ll have to take a picture of the aftermath.

Life with twins has been super interesting lately. It’s a cross between absolutely loving it and wanting to pull out our hair. They’re just so darn cute that it’s hard to stay upset when they…

  • Grab the bowl of oatmeal from you hands quicker than you think and dump it all over the carpet.
  • Scream bloody murder because you took your cell phone away from them [after they hurled it at the floor one to many times..]
  • Spill milk all over your new outfit. Then wipe their boogers across your shirt.
  • Throw tantrums because you said “no” to them.
  • Wake up in a bad mood for Christmas pics.

In the end, the cuteness just ALWAYS prevails. It just does. They are also so much more fun. The feeling that I have when I make them smile is indescribable. Just the idea that I can change their sadness into joy is amazing. They love their mommy SO much. They are such momma’s boys. I love them so much. Here’s a sampling of life with the boys:

Nat and Jose and the twins (8 of 69)

But mom, I don’t wanna!

 

Nat and Jose and the twins (13 of 69)

And…this is what trying to take Christmas pics REALLY looks like.

Nat and Jose and the twins (22 of 69)

And we have a wanderer!

 

Nat and Jose and the twins (27 of 69)

You will read a Christmas book, and you will LIKE IT!

 

And here are our actual pictures, some of which made it on the Christmas card 🙂 I think we’ve accepted that taking pics will never be easy. Maybe not until they’re teens?! Maybe?!

Nat and Jose and the twins (25 of 69)

Nat and Jose and the twins (32 of 69)

No one else I’d rather be on this journey with than this guy right here.

Nat and Jose and the twins (36 of 69)

Nat and Jose and the twins (48 of 69)

Nat and Jose and the twins (56 of 69)

This picture sums up our life. Love holds it all together <3

So in case I’m unable to blog in-between now and Christmas, I wish you the most amazing Christmas. Spend it with your friends, family, loved ones…whoever matters to you. I will be doing some crazy traveling with my husband and the boys (think 21 hours in a car…with breaks obviously, but still…TRAVEL TIPS WITH TODDLES OR BABIES?! PLEASE TELL ME!) and will be posting all about it after the Christmas break. Love you all ! <3