Of the infertility closet that is. I really can’t wait for all of this to be over so that I can share our struggles, heartache, and ultimately our hopeful triumph with others. I often feel so alone in this struggle with infertility because I feel like I have no one to talk to or relate to face to face. On the internet through boards and through the blogosphere I have definitely found comfort in knowing that without a doubt, I’m not alone in my struggles. However, I can’t help but wish that I had someone I could go out with for coffee and just share with.
In my opinion, infertility is a very hush hush thing. In other words, infertility is not a dinner conversation or something that people are usually open with. For example, “Hey can you pass me the mashed potatoes..oh yeah by the way, I’ve been dealing with infertility for about two years now!” I feel like it can often be a very taboo subject, yet there are so many people that go through it! One in eight couples struggle with infertility. Yet, I feel like I am in No Man’s Land over here..solo, alone..while everyone around me is getting pregnant. When we finally have our story of success, I would love to come out with our struggle with infertility and try to be a beacon of hope and encouragement for those that are going through it. I know that I receive so much of my comfort and strength in reading the stories of women who have gone before me and have eventually experienced childbirth. I know so many people who would be completely shocked that we are dealing with this. I think that one day I would like to come out with our struggles and give a testimony of how God brought us through. One day.
I ordered a book called “Hannah’s hope. Here is a picture of what it looks like:
It’s a book about infertility, miscarriage, and adoption loss. I was searching through Amazon for books dealing with this subject matter, specifically Christian books dealing with this subject, and came across this. It received excellent reviews and I ordered it used for less than $1. I just started reading it today and got through the introduction and the author’s story. So far I’ve learned that Jennifer tried actively conceiving with her husband for ten years..they experienced multiple miscarriages, multiple failed adoption attempts, went through many medical procedures (including procedures to deal with endometriosis..which I have) but ultimately had a boy and a girl (Joshua and Ruth). It has definitely captured my attention so far. Though I have just started the book, if you are dealing with any of these issues..I would recommend looking into this book. Seems like it’s going to be a really good read.
On a side note, the rest of my medications finally came in. Meds for the frozen embryo transfer. Looking forward to that day but wanting everything to go smoothly at the same time. Mostly, I really want my frosties to thaw out perfectly. Happy Thursday everyone! Be blessed.